[ willa understands, to a certain degree. she dies so young every time that more often than not she is the one doing the leaving but then every lifetime she has to know new people, care about new people, people she will leave, people she won't get to keep. she has the knights, but even they drift apart. theo's fucked off to some cave by himself, fabian and pia seem like the first to disappear, lark... lark was never within reach but willa still tries. if it weren't for sylvie and emmet, willa would have fucked off the same as theo.
(that's what she tells herself, but it's not true. her power comes with a compulsion to help people, caring is painful when the people you love will die, no matter how hard you try to stop it, but love is brutal and necessary and willa perseveres. every lifetime.)
she hums, a soft agreement, eyes still closed because she's a coward. ]
I'm not asking you to be good at it. You don't even have to care, I already know I'm hard to tolerate. This can be entirely transactional if you want, I'll still heal you, no strings. But if you are going to, I don't know, fucking begrudgingly care about me, then... don't act like you don't. Just be my friend, or whatever.
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[ willa understands, to a certain degree. she dies so young every time that more often than not she is the one doing the leaving but then every lifetime she has to know new people, care about new people, people she will leave, people she won't get to keep. she has the knights, but even they drift apart. theo's fucked off to some cave by himself, fabian and pia seem like the first to disappear, lark... lark was never within reach but willa still tries. if it weren't for sylvie and emmet, willa would have fucked off the same as theo.
(that's what she tells herself, but it's not true. her power comes with a compulsion to help people, caring is painful when the people you love will die, no matter how hard you try to stop it, but love is brutal and necessary and willa perseveres. every lifetime.)
she hums, a soft agreement, eyes still closed because she's a coward. ]
I'm not asking you to be good at it. You don't even have to care, I already know I'm hard to tolerate. This can be entirely transactional if you want, I'll still heal you, no strings. But if you are going to, I don't know, fucking begrudgingly care about me, then... don't act like you don't. Just be my friend, or whatever.